Tomorrow marks the first day of the next phase of my medical training…clerkship rotations! I am filled with excitement…if not a little nervous! I am so grateful for the wonderful summer break I have had with family and friends. I felt the bond with my kids growing especially strong over this summer and despite the usual challenges of parenting that sometimes leave me wanting to pull my hair out, it has been such a joy to see them thrive!
Knowing that our lives are about to get very busy with me working long hours at the hospital and a lengthy commute, I sat the kids down to let them know that they will not see mummy as often. They were sad but said, “We’ll miss you but we’ll always love you!” This really warmed my heart, especially with how attached I am to my kids!
I know there will be days when I question whether my absence is detrimental to their well-being. I know there will be days when my heart is aching to be with them. But I am trusting that they will be well and that I will not give in to the overwhelming feelings of mummy guilt. I am so grateful for my wonderful husband who I know will take excellent care of them when I’m not there. I pray for God’s grace to continually strengthen our family through this new phase of our lives.
To my dearest hubby and children, I love you dearly. It is truly a joy to be going through life with you all by my side!
So, onward we go to clerkship! Thrilled to be starting with Obstetrics!
It’s official! I am done with the second year of school and officially half-way through medical school! The past few months have been a whirlwind of activity as I completed my rotations in Surgery, Anesthesia, Ophthalmology and Radiology! This was definitely the most challenging block for me in terms of schedule and the overall demands of the rotations.
Some of the most rewarding experiences were learning how to bag-mask and intubate patients as well as put in IV lines. It was very hands-on and there were moments when I literally felt like the patient’s life was in my hands! I also enjoyed using slit-lamp biomicroscopes to look into the inner world of the eye. What a magnificent and breathtaking part of the body. It was moments like these that reminded me of the miracle and beauty of God’s creation!
I also had the opportunity to do a night shift shadowing an OBGYN resident in the Birthing Center. I had the privilege of assisting on 2 deliveries which was amazing! During the past few months, I have been praying for more clarity regarding what specialty I would like to go into and I am happy to announce that I have narrowed down my list significantly. I will have to keep you in suspense for now, but stay tuned for the big reveal at some point over the next few months.
The past 2 weeks were filled with numerous exams, lectures and small groups to prepare us for clerkship which starts at the end of July. One small group about learning in the clinical setting particularly stood out to me. The main idea was that clerkship is not about performance but about progressive learning. Meaning that the priority is not about impressing with our knowledge but rather about having a willingness to learn and progress along a continuum. I think this is true for many things in life. We will never be perfect but we can have an attitude of humility that there is always room for improvement. We will make mistakes, but we will get better with time! Persevering and refining our skills (in any field) only makes us better and more capable of serving those around us.
So what’s next? Five weeks of vacation to rest, recuperate, have fun with friends and family as I look ahead to the third year of medical school…CLERKSHIP!
Lunch break on campus!
Getting ready to scrub in on a surgery!
Surprised hubby at work for ice-cream after an exam
My precious angels…growing up so fast!
Summer creativity on the deck!
The kids love doing science experiments!
Fun at an air show!
Visit to Mont Tremblant…fun on the beach
Special mummy-daugher moment…visit to Mont Tremblant
The past few months have just flown by! We are slowly starting to see the signs of Spring after a long Winter! One of my favorite things about this time of year is seeing the green shoots of plants in the garden trying to make their way up out of the recently frozen ground, their tips emerging strong and ready for the next season! I also love hearing the honking sound of the Canadian Geese making their way back as the weather gets warmer!
Med school has been great! I completed a fun 2-week rotation in Pediatrics where we got some hands on practice taking a history and doing physical exams on patients ranging from a few months old to teenagers! I was based at 2 locations: a pediatric clinic as well as the Children’s Hospital where I shadowed a fantastic pediatic nephrologist. I felt very at ease with parents and young patients, perhaps because I have two little ones of my own. So as I spoke to parents, I thought about how I would want to be treated if my own kids were sick.
My next rotation was an 8-week rotation in Internal Medicine which I am just about to wrap up. I found it quite challenging at the beginning when faced with the complexities of the diseases I encountered on the wards and witnessing very sick patients compared to my previous patient encounters. As time went on, I began to feel more comfortable on the wards. At this point in our training, we still play mostly an observational role, but it was a really good experience getting to interact with patients, write up admission notes and work through differential diagnoses. Even just getting more familiar with the hospital’s electronic medical records was reassuring for me!
Aside from the invaluable experience we are getting as we transition to clerkship, I am also enjoying getting to know my classmates in more depth now that we are working in smaller numbers and it is easier to get to know people.
In other exciting news, we just received our schedules for Clerkship! Here’s what my next 2 years are going to look like:
Year 3: Obstetrics, Pediatrics, Elective, Family Medicine, Psychiatry, Internal Medicine, Surgery
Year 4: Electives, Emergency Medicine, Public Health, Geriatrics
In the lead up to clerkship, I have had mixed feelings…both excitement and fear. My main concern has been the longer work hours and how that would impact my husband and kids. But my husband continues to reassure me that we will “figure it out” as we have always done! I continue to rely on God’s strength to keep me positive and motivated! And I am thrilled to see my kids thriving and happy. They are so curious to know what I am learning, “What did you do in med school today, mummy?” I love it!
All-in-all, I am really looking forward to Clerkship in this next phase of our medical training. In the mean time, I am getting ready for my next 8-week pre-clerkship rotation which is a combination of…Surgery, Radiology, Anesthesiology and Ophthalmology. Here we go!
Featured image: My view from the train during my daily commute to med school.
This week was refreshing as we started the final block of the Fundamentals of Medicine: The Nervous System and Human Behavior. The previous block (Reproduction) was surprisingly one of the most challenging blocks for me due to the sensitive nature of some of the topics such as complications in pregnancy. It was difficult to listen to the lecture on miscarriage having personally experienced the trauma of a miscarriage 7 years ago. It felt like I was reliving the experience and I found myself thinking about my dear, sweet, unborn child that I never got to meet.
Moments like this plus settling my son into Grade 1, helping him with homework, occasionally managing on my own while my husband was away, plus the pressure of exams, made things seem overwhelming at times (there were definitely plenty of tears). But I continually remind myself how grateful I am to be in medical school and how much I enjoy it. And in those moments when I was really down, I thank God for his indescribable peace and grace that sustained me. I thank God for my wonderful husband, who despite experiencing his own stress and pressure at work, continues to support me and stand by me on this journey. I thank God for my family and friends who continue to pray for me and motivate me. Sometimes I feel as if I am a marathon runner who has supporters running alongside me shouting, “Keep going! Don’t give up! Keep your eye on the prize!”
One of my dearest cousins used to tell me that nothing worth having in life ever comes easily. This needn’t scare us about trying things and stretching ourselves beyond our comfort zone! It is worth the effort, tears and sweat in the end!
I am truly excited to be learning about the human brain, nervous system and behavior over the next few weeks. This week in the anatomy lab, I had the rare privilege of holding a human brain in my hands. I hope this will not be too gruesome for some of you to read but I had to write this to express my sincere appreciation for the magnificence of the human body and for those people who donated themselves for our educational learning. To be holding the essence of this individual’s personality, memories, hopes and dreams in my hands made me reflect on how important each life is.
Featured Image by Potential Doctor: Sunset view of Montreal after a hike up Mont Royal
A few weeks ago, I started a new series on parenting principles based on several parenting books I read over the summer (plus my own parenting experience so far). The first principle in the series was speaking positively about our children, affirming them while avoiding harmful and destructive criticism. Today, we move on to the second principle.
Parenting Principle Number Two: Discipline is an Expression of love
Do we really need to discipline our kids? This is a tough one! Some days, it’s so much easier to just let the kids behave however they want. But I have to remind myself that this is not true love. While it may be easier in the moment to not discipline my child, this is not in their best interests in the long term.
What are some strategies for disciplining kids? Each parent will have their own strategy and values regarding discipline but what I have found works well for our family is outlined in Brittany Ann’s book “Teach Your Children How to Behave”. The basic concept is teaching your children how to make the right choice rather than simply ordering them to “do” or “not do” something. We as the parents then follow through with consistent consequences if they make the wrong choice. I am seeing the value of teaching my kids this from an early age.
Disciplining children is tough! It can make us feel like mean parents (yes, I have been called “mean mummy!”) and it can be tempting to take the easy route. As difficult and emotionally wrenching as it can be to discipline our kids, it is worth it for the long term character building of our children and demonstrates how deeply we love them!
One of the things that I wanted to improve on from my last year in medical school was learning to slow down and appreciate the little things around me. I loathed the fact that mornings were rushed and it seemed like we were always ordering the kids around and rushing them out the door. With better time management and changes to our parenting approach, the mornings during the past week have been beautiful. I know that not every morning will go smoothly but I am simply grateful for those that do. This morning I felt grateful for 4 things:
Brushing my little girl’s hair: I had dreamed of doing this ever since I was a teenager. After my first pregnancy ended in a traumatic miscarriage, it sometimes seems like a dream that both she and my son are actually here in my life.
Getting hugs from my dear son: As I was getting things ready this morning, my son suddenly stopped me and said, “Mummy, I want to do something”…he then enveloped me in a deep, long hug. Moments like these make the challenges of motherhood seem more than worth it!
Being in medical school: As I looked over the voluminous material I need to learn over the next few weeks, I simply sat back and drank in the fact that although it’s a challenge, I am doing what I have been wanting to do for so long…and I love it!
My Heavenly Father: I love the scripture in Psalms that describes God as a “Father to the fatherless” and a “Defender“. Having lost my father unexpectedly when I was 5 years old, I truly have seen God be a Father to me through the years. Despite the ups and downs, He has always been there for me. He is my hope and everlasting peace!
Take a moment to stop and reflect. What are you grateful for today?