Medical School Starts Tomorrow!

It is hard to believe that after 10 years of planning, with plenty of detours and surprises, I am finally starting medical school tomorrow! When I look back on the past few years, there were several moments when I wondered why there had been a delay or why things did not go as planned. In hindsight, I realize that everything had a purpose and that this is exactly the right time to be doing this, even if it took much longer than expected to get here!

I am so grateful for the support I have received from my amazing husband, church, friends and family. If you have a goal in life that seems somewhat overwhelming or even nearly impossible, gather the right people around you to encourage you, lift you up and mentor you. This has been invaluable to me for getting through obstacles and disappointments.

Last Friday, my husband and I spent a day together (normally, we’re surrounded by our rambunctious kids!) We drove downtown and strolled around hand-in-hand reminiscing on our early dating days. It was so special to walk on campus where I completed my first degree eleven years go, knowing that in just a few days I would begin another one at the very same university.

My husband and I wandered into the medical building where most of my classes will be. We eventually found ourselves in the Osler library, home to thousands of books on the history of medicine personally owned by the Canadian physician Sir William Osler, the father of modern medicine. There was something so profound about being in touch with this important piece of history just prior to the start of my own journey into medicine.

As I start a new phase of my life tomorrow, I hope you will continue to follow me on this adventure. My husband and children are very excited and although I know it will be demanding, I am so thrilled to have my ‘team’ behind me for support!

Onward to medical school!

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On campus with my husband
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Last weekend before medical school starts! A fun ferry ride on the way to the beach at Oka park
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Last day before medical school starts: a day at the water-slides in Pointe Calumet

Photo credit for featured image: Karen Coshof (from the book ‘The Osler Library’)

Reflections on Family and Medical School

There are less than 3 weeks to go until the start of medical school! The countdown is on and we are so excited as a family. I have been spending as much time as possible with the kids before school starts and I am treasuring the simple yet special moments I have with them, like a visit to the zoo, the beach or making chocolate chip cookies together. Or simply having them envelop me in a hug and say, “Mummy, we love you…and we’ll always love you.”

I am so grateful to have had almost 3 uninterrupted years at home with my two children. It has been a gift and a refreshing break from my research work in the pharmaceutical industry. When my husband and I revisited the idea of me going back to school to pursue medicine, I had pangs of guilt about being away from the children. I wondered if they would understand why mummy is away for such long hours at school or the hospital. I know the guilt is something I may struggle with throughout my training and career. But I also know that the kids are very much loved and my husband and I have a game plan to maximize quality time with them. I hope that we can be a good example for them.

To my beautiful children, I have witnessed your first steps, your first words, your first falls, your first tears and your first laughs (and yes, changing more diapers than I ever thought were possible!). You have shown me a new side of myself and given me the gift of allowing me to nurture you.

Although the next few months will be a transition phase, I feel at peace that we are heading in the right direction as a family. Today, I was excited by the simple act of buying stationery for both myself starting medical school and my son starting kindergarten (my husband laughed at me enthusiastically showing him my stash from the dollar store: highlighters, stickies, pens, to name a few!).

I am also happy to announce that my very independent daughter decided to potty train herself in the month of June. I had been really hoping to get it done before the start of med school and was aiming to start potty training in July. She beat us to it telling us proudly, “I don’t want diapers any more mummy, I’m a big girl!”…….Well alright then! You go girl!

My husband and I have also been having some interesting discussions about what medical specialty to go into. I have been talking to several doctors in different fields and reading up as much as I can. So far, my interests are quite diverse: family medicine, obstetrics/gynecology, surgery and pathology. I am going to remain open-minded throughout my learning and enjoy the process. I know there will be many challenges ahead but I am absolutely thrilled to be finally doing this after so many years of planning!

Thank you for staying with me on this journey! I am excited to share it with you!

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Her first visit to the Ecomuseum
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Relaxing on the beach
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Brother-sister love!
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Getting ready to bake some delicious  cookies!

 

Getting Closer to the Start of Medical School!

As the start of medical school approaches, I can feel the excitement continuing to rise! This is going to be such an amazing journey! I know it will be very challenging and will stretch me in many ways. I am going to give it my very best effort, knowing that my family, friends and God’s strength will help to sustain me through the upcoming long journey!

Since my last medical school update, we have managed to get a lot done:

  • Take Basic Life Support class (CPR and AED): Done! Very useful course that I think everyone should learn!
  • Update immunizations: mostly completed. Pending 2 reports following a chicken-pox titre test and chest X-Ray. Two more tetanus shots will be done in August and February.
  • Financing my medical education: meet with the bank (done, credit-line approved!), apply for government financial aid (done, waiting for my application to be processed) and scholarships (done, and I’m happy to announce that I received a scholarship that will go towards part of my first year of tuition!)
  • Look for a second-hand car to commute 5o minutes downtown: done! We got a fuel-efficient 2012 Toyota Yaris with only 13,000 kms on it for less than half the price of a new car!
  • Register for classes: Registration opened yesterday! It’s so thrilling to see what courses I will be starting off with (trying not to be fazed that the number of courses and credits are almost double what I did per semester during my undergraduate degree. I have been told medical school is like trying to drink water from a fire hydrant!!)

So all in all, things are falling into place and I feel truly grateful to God for this amazing opportunity to study medicine and hopefully make a difference in the lives of my future patients!

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Registering for my medical school courses Fall 2016!!

 

My Medical School Interview is Done!

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Ready for my med school interview

Yesterday, I had an amazing day as I went through my medical school interview experience. After an intense few weeks of preparation, it was finally time to face the interview! The venue was downtown, 50 minutes away from our house. My husband and children (my cheering squad) were eager to accompany me to the interview so they got up bright and early with me to make it downtown for 7am. We arrived well in advance and I got to chat with other interviewees.

As the interview day organizers came to collect us nervous interviewees from the lobby, I kissed and hugged my family good bye and proceeded to the check-in location. I was thankfully assigned to the first group of the morning and after a quick debriefing, we went to start our interviews. It was in Multiple-Mini-Interview (MMI) format with 10 different interview stations. Despite my initial nervousness, it was a fantastic experience. It’s difficult to know how I performed but I really enjoyed it and felt that it stretched me out of my comfort zone.

Even in those especially challenging moments when I felt unsure of how to answer the question, I prayed for strength and was encompassed by such a sense of boldness and confidence. I felt God’s presence with me helping me to be calm and at peace. I thoroughly enjoyed interacting with the interviewers, actors and the other interviewees.

It was stimulating hearing about people’s stories and their diverse backgrounds. The whole event was very well organized and there was something so energizing about being around people with similar goals and aspirations. The admissions decisions will be released on May 12th when I will find out if I have been accepted to medical school!

Through all of this, I am just so grateful to have made it this far. I have received overwhelming support from my church, friends and family who have been encouraging me and praying with me for months. No matter what happens on May 12th, it has been an amazing ride and my faith has grown in so many ways through this whole process. I’m excited!

 

A Step Closer…An Interview Invitation to Medical School

For the past several years, it has been my hope to pursue a career in medicine. Although there have been setbacks, delays and disappointments, I am happy to announce that I received an invitation to interview at my top-choice medical school!

January had been a tough month for me with multiple refusals from several medical schools. When I received one “no” after the other, I was tempted to lose hope. But I knew there was still one university pending and my prayer was that the best outcome for my family and I would prevail.

As I waited for the interview decisions to come out yesterday, my emotions fluctuated between hope, excitement, dread and fear. So many friends and family were waiting for the news and I did not want to disappoint them. My husband and I decided that we would wait for him to get home from work before checking online for the status of my application. The level of suspense was high and at one point in the day, I folded my arms on the dining room table, let a few tears fall down my face and said, “God, I did my best, whatever happens today, may your will be done!

Looking back at the months of waiting and the moments of disappointment, I can say that things are working out for the best because this particular university that I received an invitation to is one of the top universities in Canada, it is the closest one to where we live and also happens to be my alma mater.  I am truly blown away and humbled that I was chosen to interview because the competition was stiff.

Through all of this, I am just grateful to have made it a step further in my dream of becoming a doctor. The last hurdle will be to get through the interview and make it to the final cut. It is a huge challenge but if I’ve made it this far, there is still hope and I am going to give it my very best shot!

So the next few weeks will be spent ramping up my interview practice in preparation for my multiple-mini-interview (MMI) on May 2nd. I am thrilled, excited and so very hopeful that things will work out for the best! No matter what happens, I am so happy to have made it this far and for the incredible support I have received from those around me.

Never give up on your dreams. The mountain may seem insurmountable but there is always a way to get to the top! We just have to keep going!

Looking Past Failure…with Joyful Expectations for the Future

I have started off this year feeling very positive and excited about the future. I listened to a talk recently where the speaker described hope as having joyful expectations about the future. And with that hope, comes the attitude of seeing the good in what we currently have now.

When I didn’t get into medical school when I applied in 2013, I was deeply disappointed. I just couldn’t stomach the thought of going through subsequent setbacks. So why not just settle? Admit failure and go back to what I was doing before?

What I am learning from my experiences is that the future goal keeps us hopeful, and in the mean time, we are being shaped and equipped in preparation for our purpose. Both the successes and failures refine us and make us better. It may seem like it is taking an eternity to get to our goal, but provided that we are regularly taking a small step towards that goal, progress is being made. Provided that we are keeping our heads above the waves, and keeping our eyes on the lighthouse that is guiding us to shore, we are making progress.

I am no longer afraid of failure. It may still hurt but I am not afraid of it. I am not afraid of trying again. Each attempt teaches me something and helps me to grow in some way. The journey is just as important as the destination and each day we have is valuable.

So, as I wait to hear back from medical schools this application cycle, I am excited! I am not afraid of the outcome. Whatever happens, I have so much to be grateful for. I have my support-team behind me and I have people who believe in me and love me no matter what.

Whatever your dreams and goals are, don’t give up. Failing is not the end. It means you were courageous enough to try…and that’s something to be proud of.

 

Reflections on the Year 2015

As I reflect on the past year, I find myself feeling very blessed and grateful for my family and friends. I have experienced wonderful support and encouragement this year, with a fortification in my friendships and relationships. Even though I am in a transition phase regarding my career and there are a lot of unknowns in the coming year, I feel very much at peace that things will fall into place.

Here are some of the things I am grateful for from this past year:

  • I love being a mother: even though motherhood has been challenging, I find my love for the kids growing more and more every day. I sometimes stare at them in awe, not quite believing that these two adorable children are actually ours. I love having a family and taking care of them.
  • I love being married to my best friend: my husband has been such a rock for our family. He astounds me with his patience, his encouragement and his selflessness. He makes me laugh and he is so much fun to be around. He believes in me and loves me just the way I am. I can be completely myself around him and I am grateful for the 12 years we have been together.
  • Making progress towards my goal of becoming a doctor: this year, I sat the MCAT exam (after two previous attempts) and was very pleased with my results. I submitted my applications to five medical schools in Canada which was a very exciting moment for me! Although one medical school has declined my application, I am not giving up hope! I am waiting to hear back from the other medical schools.
  • Growing from unexpected challenges: this year I lost my job during my maternity leave. I had been employed there for 9 years and it was quite a big blow to our family. Despite the financial and emotional challenges of this situation, I am grateful that it has allowed me to spend so much valuable time with my children and to simply trust that God has everything under control.
  • Being more involved at church: I have loved playing piano more often during the service on Sundays. Teaching Sunday school has also been a wonderful blessing.
  • Tutoring: I recently stared tutoring college and university students in Chemistry and I am loving it! I enjoy the one-on-one time with each student and it is very rewarding to watch difficult concepts become clearer to them.
  • Growing my blog: When I started this blog in 2014, it was supposed to be a private diary. I was inspired by a fellow blogger to go public with my blog. It has transformed into a wonderful avenue for me to share my experiences and connect with others. Blogging has increased my self-confidence in many ways and I have made some incredible friendships through it.

I am looking forward to an amazing new year, full of exciting new possibilities! Thank you to all my readers and followers who have added a wonderful dimension to my life this year. You are so appreciated!