The Admissions Decision…Working Through Disappointment

This is a difficult post for me to write. I received the medical school admissions decision on Friday and found out that I was put on the waiting list. So close to getting in, but did not quite make the cut. I felt utterly disappointed when I first found out the news. I had been put on the waiting list the first time I applied to medical school in 2012. It was like dรฉjร  vu and I just felt crushed by the news.

I had applied in a very competitive category (the non-traditional pathway) for applicants who have been out of university for several years and whose science prerequisites have “expired” (more than 8 years old). There were 127 applicants, 17 interviewed and 3 spots available in this category. I was so happy to have made it to the group of 17 who were interviewed. If I made it to the waiting list, it means I am probably in the top 4 to 6 applicants.

Processing this news has been difficult because I felt that I got so close to my goal. It is there looking me in the face but just out of my grasp. It was hard to share the news with my friends and family who were eagerly waiting to know what the decision was. They have been so amazingly supportive and positive.

There is of course a chance that I will make it off the waiting list if one of the three accepted students does not take their spot. The waiting list remains active until the first day of classes in August so I have possibly another 3 months of waiting.

Because I am a person who tends to keep my struggles to myself, I am looking at this as an opportunity to learn to lean on others for support and to not stifle my emotions. I am going to “grieve” this news and allow myself to sort through the feelings of disappointment. I am not going to allowย myself to feel like a failure because I know I gave it my all and there were circumstances beyond my control.

In all of this, I have to remind myself that God has a plan, the best plan for me. Right now I don’t understand this outcome. I don’t understand what the bigger picture is. But I have to trust that God sees that bigger picture and he is working behind the scenes to bring about something wonderful.

In the next few weeks as my husband and I figure out what to do next, I will try to remain focused on the great things in my life, like my beautiful children and awesome husband, my wonderful mother and big brothers…and all the amazing friends and family who continue to uphold me and encourage me.

Now is not the time for embarrassment, self-deprecation or negativity, but a time for reflection, a time to go back to God for more direction and a time to heal from this immense hurt that I feel.

 

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15 thoughts on “The Admissions Decision…Working Through Disappointment

  1. I’m SO proud of you. No matter what happens regarding the wait list, you’ve done exceptionally well, you’ve been recognized for your hard work, and you will excel in the next step of your journey. Congratulations, and take such good care of you.

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    1. Wow! Thank you very much for your wonderfully positive words! I appreciate that so much!! Thank you for taking the time to read and follow my journey. Wishing you all the best too ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. Malaika you have always been my inspiration ever since I discovered your blog, and as I am struggling with MCAT, always remember that God works miracle in his own way. There will always be light after a tunnel. Lots of Love

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    1. Thanks so much for your encouragement Cindy. It is much appreciated. And I am so glad you continue to be inspired! Keep up the great work you are doing and keep going! You will make it too! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  3. Please try not to feel embarrassed by this. This is out of your control. Thankfully God IS in control and He will get you to where you want to be at just the right time. I will be praying for you. You are an inspiration for many and personally helping me in my path with your positivity in all things. God bless you!

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    1. Thank you so much for your uplifting words! You are so sweet! God is indeed in control. I’m really glad that I have been of help to you on your journey. Wishing you all the very best. I know you will make it. Blessings to you!

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  4. My daughter was wait-listed at Northwestern Medical School in Chicago and was admitted shortly after! Do not lose hope! I send you lots of love that never fails, encouragement and inspiration in the Holy Spirit and hope everlasting! The latter glory will be greater than the former! Our Father is good and he has great plans and a future for you! God bless you and your family! ~Yvonne

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    1. Thank you very much Yvonne! Your kind, positive words are so encouraging and the story of your daughter gives me lots of hope and inspiration! Blessings to you and thank you so much for your support! ๐Ÿ˜Š

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