If At First You Don’t Succeed…Try Again With the Right Attitude!

When I applied to one local medical school in 2012, I remember the process being quite harrowing. I felt enormous pressure to succeed and I didn’t want to disappoint or let anyone down. The days seemed to crawl by as I waited for months to find out if I would be invited for an interview. Once I did get an interview, it was another few months of waiting to find out if I had been accepted. When I ended up on the waiting list post-interview, it was yet another few months to find out if I had gotten off the waiting list which unfortunately did not happen. It was essentially a full year of waiting to find out that I had ultimately not been accepted to medical school!

I learned a lot from that application cycle and my interview experience will certainly be useful if I receive interviews this application cycle. This time round, I feel so much calmer, at peace and I don’t think about my applications all the time like I did in the last application cycle. I am learning to appreciate each day with my children and I find it’s making life so much more enjoyable. I don’t feel on edge or anxious. Last time, I felt like my sense of worth hinged on my acceptance to medical school. What would people think of me if I didn’t get accepted? Not so smart after all! Last time I barely even announced that I was applying to medical school, not wanting people to know I was trying lest I be rejected. But I feel in the last few years, my perspective has changed significantly. It’s not about what people think of me but about being honest with myself about what I really want to achieve and saying to myself, “even if I fail, at least I tried and will not spend my life with regrets”.

I have realized the importance of support networks and how much I need people’s support to help me through this process. This time round, I have shouted it from the mountaintops that I am applying to medical school. I am proud of it and I love the energy and enthusiasm of the whole process. Each week, there is at least one email or message asking how things are going with my applications, MCAT etc. and I just love it. I feel like I have a whole cheer-leading squad behind me. And that same squad will be there when my MCAT results come out, they will be there if I get invited for interviews and they will be there if I get accepted. They will ultimately be there whatever the outcome. I do not have to handle this long, painstaking process on my own. Even though I still have a long road left in this application cycle, I am not dreading it. I don’t feel as impatient as before and I am just thankful that no matter the outcome, I still have amazing blessings in my life.

One of my favorite stories in the Bible is the story of Joseph. He was sold into slavery by his brothers who were envious of him and it took many years of hardship and imprisonment before he rose to a position of great eminence in Egypt. Through all this time, he conducted himself with excellence and never complained about his circumstances. I love his example because it reminds me that even though I have many steps to go through to get to my goal, I can still conduct myself with excellence in the interim. I can still be at my best in whatever I am doing as I wait to find out the future of my medical school dream, be it raising my children, doing chores, volunteering etc. This perspective has made me feel so much more at peace knowing that each day matters and each day deserves my best effort. I will eventually get where I want to go!

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Image courtesy of Stuart Miles at freedigitalphotos.net

13 thoughts on “If At First You Don’t Succeed…Try Again With the Right Attitude!

  1. I love the story of Joseph. I also think it serves as a reminder to us that though terrible things can happen and life has its setbacks, God does do good through those things. “Though you intended for these things to be evil, God used them for good.” 🙂

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  2. So well put Kalu! I think one of the important ways God helps us to grow is to show us the things we use to define our worth and then urging us to release them and recognize our inherent value. I think you are approaching this whole process so healthily and I am glad to be part of the cheerleading squad, backflips and all!

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    • Thank you so much JB! What you say about what God shows us is so true! This has been a great learning experience overall. Thanks for being a faithful member of the cheerleading squad! 😉


  3. You are just awesome Malaika, & I love your positivity! Beautifully written inspiration. Everything has its time. Since 2012, you had so many blessings that could have been missed if you were dealing with the demands of med school. So I say rock on and enjoy the best of both worlds. It’s your moment and all will be fine. Cheers to success! 🙂

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    • Thanks so much Yadei! You are totally right that I have had so many blessings including my little girl who I may not have had if I had started medical school in 2013. God knows what is the best timing so I’m just trusting in Him for the best outcome. All the best with your studies 🙂

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