What I Do, I Do For You…A Letter to My Children

To my dear sweet children, I can’t express how your presence in my life has brought me such joy, laughter and an appreciation for the little things. Motherhood has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to do but it has also been the most rewarding. On days when I feel like I am failing, and wondering if I am good enough for you, you amaze me with your sincerity, your love for me and your complete trust in me.

There are days I still worry if medical school is the right thing for us as a family. Your daddy continually reminds me that this is an adventure we face as a family and not something that I am doing alone. I am choosing to pursue medical school because I feel that I have something to offer those around me by healing their sicknesses, being a listening ear, and being a source of counsel and comfort. It is not unlike being a mother, but on a much larger scale. My darlings, I want you to follow your passion and your dreams. It won’t be easy but it will be worth the effort and determination you put in.

When I see the comfortable life we have now, with the farm next door where you go feed the animals and follow our neighbor around as he plants and harvests, when I see how much you are blooming in your various social circles, I sometimes worry about disrupting this to go pursue medical school. But I want you to know that I am hoping my choice will ultimately be the best for you and will inspire you to be the best you can be despite the sacrifices you may have to make along the way. This journey to medical school has sometimes been a source of conflict in my heart as I feel pulled back and forth towards motherhood but as my wise mom told me just this morning, “Your kids will always know that you love them and that what you are doing is for them”.

Our munchkins Caleb and Naomi

Our munchkins Caleb and Naomi

13 thoughts on “What I Do, I Do For You…A Letter to My Children

  1. Of course, we have talked about this issue at length and we have this question in common. Remember that we are inspired by what dad did for medicine in Kenya, and that has shaped us. So even though it may seem like “your thing” to go to medical school, it really is about the effect on the whole family and I have no doubt it will be positive. From experience Kalu, kids are adaptive– they just need to know you care and will look for opportunities to engage them . . . love never fails.

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  2. Hi!
    Sounds like your post will help people conflicted about working and raising children. My children thrived in day care. Too dependent on me otherwise.
    Thank you so much for following my blog. I would have welcomed you sooner, but I was on vacation Welcome!

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